Vulnerability and the closeness it brings
There is an incredible amount of closeness and joy which vulnerability can bring. There is the depth of connection which only trust brings. There is safety and security which comes with a relationship in which you know that you are fully heard, seen and held.
I feel delighted that I have created this sense of safety and boundary pushing with some of my clients, where we can explore, push boundaries and be held right at the edge of our limits, with safety and with empathy.
Words fail to describe how intimate a relationship of this manner can be, how giddy making, how ephemeral. How the touch, whether it be beating or caressing can be electrifying. How I know by how deeply my client is breathing, if we are close to an edge, or far from it. How this trust is developed over time. How I know that my client is able to know themselves well enough to ask for what they need, when they need it. That I will understand their queues, be they visual or verbal. How you can learn to read a body, know it well and therefore create crescendos of sensation and emotion.
When I am able to develop these relationships with clients, when we can both step into ourselves fully, life and my body feels fully alive. Time pauses or rushes and whether I be spitting, crushing, holding or laughing, I feel truly at ease and in my body. When you can truly attune yourself to someone else’s body and mind by playing, pushing, devouring and listening, the world itself becomes mesmerising and I want to drink in every moment of this experience.
For those who allow me to play at this depth, I thank you, for your vulnerability and your trust in me. For those wishing to play at this level, I welcome you with open arms, ready to create a myriad of adventures with you.
